It seems every few years my life dramatically changes. It seems I am on one path and then I suddenly jerk the wheel and go into a totally different direction. I don't think this is a bad quality. I think it just adds to my many layers.
So here I am again in the midst of another big change in life. Once again I have moved and in the process of starting over. Yet this move and change does not feel like the other moves I have previously done in life. I can't seem to get settled or feel comfortable here. I wonder if it is because this move was to run away rather than deal with my problems??
I am not one to run from my issues but I just couldn't handle seeing the mistakes I made thrown in my face every day. I couldn't bare to see the man I loved and who left me every day. I couldn't pick up the pieces there and the truth is I don't think I can pick up the pieces here either.
I have come to the realization I am not meant for true happiness. Don't get me wrong I am happy but not that perfect happieness everyone else seems to find in life.
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