I went to therapy today. It was amazing in an hour all that I managed to get out. I have still have a hard time talking about things. I guess it will never be easy.

My therapist had mentioned loneliness.

This is something I feel a lot but never put much stock into. I just always assumed I was just a social person by nature. The reality of it is that I have been so scared and felt alone in some traumatic situations that I can no longer stand to be alone. That I almost need someone to be there just so I don't feel alone. Because of this trait I have let some toxic people in my life.

This is something I am really going to have to focus on. Maybe it is better to be alone then to let a toxic person in my life that is going to end up hurting me in the end!