Trapped

I hate when I go to therapy and things don't get left in the room. Nope they follow me right out the door so I can sit and think about them. Oh joy!!!!

Today's session was mostly on how I feel trapped. There is no more frustrating feeling than feeling like you are stuck and there is not a fucking thing you can do about it.

I just want to break away and be free to live my own life. I am so sick and fucking tired of being told what to do, when to do it, how to do it. I am almost 29 years old and get treated like a 16 year old. Last time I checked this was my life and no one else's. When I make mistakes in life it is my consequences that I must render. No one else! I am not perfect and I will fall along the way but it was because it was my choice!

I am sick of being broke because I give them everything I have, I am sick of living in their house with their rules, I am sick of getting things and them taking it back because they need it now!

Most of all I am sick of living the life they want me to live and not living the life I want to live.